Angel called HG to tell me some stuffs .
will be seeing jesslyn tomorrow .

Daddy called my hp to ask what i feel like eating later on .

I just went her blog .
my tears filled my eyes .
i held on to them as i'm working .
i felt sad for her but i cant understand .

The post of hers made me looked back to what i had in the past
which i never cherish at all .

Why cant people just understand people when one is trying to make everyone happy ?

Why cant people think of people's feelings ?

I seriously dont understand humans .

Must we all come to a part when something bad happen then we will wake up & look back to the past learning how bad that we have lost all precious times .

I swear that i miss my lifes with my friends/sisters .
i was all along a boyfriend's girl who stick with boyfriend all the time .
& totally neglect my surroundings which i totally regretted till now .
i neglected my families , my studies & my friends & my sisters .
& worse of all my bloody attutide .

My ears went deaf on everyone who tried to talk to me especially JOAN .
we were once so close yet i didnt cherish .
our closeness became distance & eventually disappearing .

There's a saying , jiu de bu qu ; xin de bu lai .

I remembered kawaii bitches , kkts , QS ...

Till now this had always been weighing down on me .
i had no friends to turn to when i have troubles .
i have no friends to turn to when i am feeling down .
i have no friends to share my good news with .
nobody was there for me when i fell down .

Everything changes when i step out of school life .
& things got worse .

I miss those times when we were all younger in school & bball times.
though i was a boyfriend's girl .
& we did not have much time together .
& & it got worse now as everyone was either busy with work or schooling or families or boyfriends or their new friends .

I remembered once my computer died on me ,
i lost every single photos of everyone .
every single ones stored in my computer .
i cried & cried .
but baby assured me that he has had some of them in his portable harddisk .

In fact , i felt i owe them apologys .

But i am glad to know that they still treat me as their friends/sisters till today .

As for now i felt so lucky & xinfu already ,
i have a doting & caring & patient boyfriend who loves me dearly .
i have a good & lovely family who loves me too .
& i so glad to still have ue guys .

I had many regrets in my life .

I learnt lots of lessons in my life .

I had lost lots of valuables in my life .

I hope to see everyone of my friends soon .

I'm just letting out how i feel after reading Angel's post .